Dark Thoughts

Dark thoughts
I have restricted them from entering into my memory

I try
Try to read
Try to watch
Try to listen to million podcasts
Try to worry about world
Try to add one more certification to spruce up my resume

Try everything and anything but to avoid an empty mind

Why risk even one slip
Why let it project the picture in the memory

It's not worth to face it
It's not worth to have them visit my brain

I hear secrets getting whispered
I see truth getting surfaced
I feel the hair raising discomfort
As I taste the bitter realization

Maybe I am the reason this thought is dark in the first place
Maybe I am the monster